It wasn’t pretty, but it was necessary.
I’d just been told they would have to cancel my home insurance if I wanted to have in-person Reiki clients and pay a cancellation fee of £63.36
Writing it down now, it doesn’t seem a big deal; I mean, I could ring around other insurers and see if they could cover me, right?
My logical thinking and resilience would normally tell me what I needed to do. But the problem was, that side of me (unknowingly) was no longer active.
The build up
The previous two weeks, I hadn’t been feeling myself; I was teary, anxious, unfocused and withdrawn; although if you’ve seen my newsletters and social media, you wouldn’t have known (all praise the scheduling apps!)
Was it peri-menopause symptoms, low mood creeping back in, and difficulty sleeping because I was going to bed later than usual (I blame Love Island) and the Full Moon approaching?
Or was it poor diet, all that time, excitement & energy spent getting the Reiki room ready or was it because my youngest finished primary and I was experiencing that change, that loss?
I’ve decided it was a little bit of everything.
You see, when little bits of everything get on top of you, all it takes is one little cherry on top to bring your world crumbling down.
It’s a bit like the Tarot card, The Tower; a flash of lightning striking the tower, people falling out, and the building crumbles.
But, as you know, when things ‘appear’ to fall apart, it’s always followed by a re-build.
Back to me crying
So, I told the call handler how disappointed I was that this was happening, and I didn’t know what to do. Taking deep breaths to avoid the deep sobbing noise and snotty nose.
They were apologetic, although probably wondering why this woman was getting so upset.
After I finished the call, I sent a text to my Reiki Teacher asking for her advice, a message to my FSB representative and a call to the FSB helpline.
The helpline was brilliant, reassuring me that I would be able to get home insurance that would cover my business too.
A hop, skip and jump onto comparethemarket.com, I got some quotes, the first being Admiral. I made the call to doubly make sure they could cover; a top guy called Josh spent his time consoling and advising me.
It turns out they could cover me; they just needed to check my occupation with the underwriting team as, surprise, surprise, Reiki Practitioner wasn’t on their system.
The next day, I had the call I was waiting for; it was a green light for Admiral!
Phew. I was back in the game.
I am resilient
It took a few days for me to reflect and understand why I reacted like that.
When I look back over the last 18 months, creating & building two businesses from nothing, learning how to build two websites, marketing, SEO, networking, getting clients, retaining clients, raising my prices, creating new offerings and projects, and so much more, I know I am resilient.
I know I can face challenges and find the answer, BUT I can only do it when I take care of myself.
Things like;
-Talking about my feelings
-Dealing with big changes instead of pretending they don’t affect me.
-Having a balanced diet
-Going to bed & getting enough sleep
-Accepting that I also need help
And, of course, keeping on top of my self-care practices BUT doing them mindfully.
Because another thing I’ve just realised whilst writing this blog; I was doing my usual self-care, practicing Reiki, walking daily and journaling, but I wasn’t doing them mindfully.
My mind was elsewhere, so they didn’t have the same impact.
And now I’m reminded of our Reiki precepts;
For today only do not anger
For today only do not worry
For today only be humble
For today only be true to your way and your being
For today only be compassionate to yourself & others.
In other words, be in the moment, be present, be here & now.
